The frustration is overwhelming at times. The frustration of never having enough money. The frustration of working with people that have never liked you. The frustration of not having a partner. The frustration of not letting go of fears. The list goes on.
I am sitting here in bed still in my pjs wondering what has happened. Has life passed me by? Am I doomed to to keep living this life that I am?
I have all the tools, skills, knowledge and techniques to move this crap on and learn the lessons yet it isn’t happening. Far out. This is ridiculous. Come on for goodness sake. Get a move on.
Hang on a minute. Who are you to tell me what to do? Anyway. Yeah. Who are you?
You don’t know who I am? Well that is just freaking great. You have only been speaking to me for years. Now I am feeling insulted or is it that you don’t want to know because it will scare the crap out of you? Is that it? Huh? Huh?
Crap. No I don’t want to know. Don’t make me. That’s it. Covers going over my head now.
You little shit. You have been seeking my help for so long and now when it is time for you to wake up and see your own reality you go and hide. Get out from under there. Now!!!!!
Argh. No. No. No. Don’t make me look. Shit. Oh god no. It can’t be.
I don’t want to look at you. Please don’t tell me.
Yes. You know who I am. Come on. Open those eyes. It is okay. You need to understand what is happening and what will happen.
Why do I?
It is time for you to wake up. You have a big job to do and I am here to help you do that.
It’s scary though. How can little old me do it?
Come on sweetheart. I am here to hold you the whole time. I won’t let go. You just need to trust me.
I open my eyes and gently raise them. Oh god. It’s me. No. It’s me from the future and yet I am male. How can that be.
I am the male side of you from the future. The side that you need to embrace to be the powerful human being you are and can be.
What? Why do I need to embrace you? I am female.
Yes you are. Yet you are also male. You are both. Without one or the other human beings remain unbalanced. There would be so much more happiness and laughter in the world if everyone embraced both sides. How beautiful is it to be one. To be both male and female. To embrace the joys of both. To be whole. To be complete. To be amazing. To be joy. To be laughter. To be a pure soul. Can you feel that? That is you. That is both of you. Look! Look! See the energy? It is gold and silver. Male and female. One and the other.
Oh god. I can barely take it. The energy is too much. It hurts because it is so much love. I don’t know if I can take that much love?
It is okay. Hold my hand. I am with you all the way. Be gentle. Open that beautiful heart of yours and let the love flood in. You can’t break as you are only love. That is all you are. A soul filled with love living in the human body. Have a look around.
Look. Open your eyes and see what is around you.
What? Who? How?
Ah. You are so beautiful with your wonder. Never loose that. These are the beautiful souls that have always been with you except you have never seen them because you have not been willing to be so open.
Oh my. That’s my boyfriend that died. My grandparents, my uncle. Oh my. I was never that close to my family when they were alive so why are they here now?
They have been through their own transformation when they went back to being a soul and have realised that they need to help you through your own transformation.
What!! Am I going to die? No!
Awwww. Sweetheart. No. The transformation of you waking up and stepping forward in life.
Oh. Thank goodness. That really scares me because even though life sucks at the moment I don’t want to go yet.
Good. We still have so much to do. Okay. Let’s go for a walk and feel nature. We need The energy that the Earth and Sun can give us. Comeon. Up. Up. Up